This morning I woke up, and took on my normal 30 minutes of ME time.
I always stress how important it is to be aware of self before we go getting in “other people’s lives” by way of social media.
Once I grabbed my phone to begin the scrolling, I came across a infographic that made me stop in my tracks.
It was a list of signs that you could be dealing with depression.
First one, insomnia.
I’ve been really on the grind for Upgraded Mindsetz and I could be passing it off as a reaction from that….or not. I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night, and unable to drift back off if at all.
Next one, weight gain.
Although, I haven’t gained as much as I thought, the fact remains, I have gained. The past month I haven’t been really doing my daily exercise routines, and “cheating” on my intermittent fasting journey. I passed that off as being my birthday, business anniversary, and vacation month and that I was just taking a lil time off…..or not.
Next up, anger and irritability.
I’ve dealt with this before and discovered it was from surpressed emotions and my own guilt of not doing things for the better of myself in the past. I spent years people pleasing and not taking care of me, and my words of frustration came out more than ever….am I on the verge again?
This one here….Detachment.
I’ve been meeting some great people along my coaching, podcasting and speaking journey. Things are good on that side of things. However, I’m noticing that I’m also slowing conversations, not really wanting to be bothered with those closest to me. This is not a bash against them, just my vulnerability being put out there. I just don’t feel folks are where I am in my mind as I continue to grow and elevate as a full time entrepreneur…or am I just pushing them away for no real reason?
This last one….feeling hopeless.
As a Mindset Motivator and Coach, I carry a responsibility to encourage, inspire and empower positive growth within women. But I can’t help sometimes thinking that some women just don’t want to be helped, and they are ok with the everyday havoc they go through. That may be, but when I see the same ones crying about why their lives are in shambles and that no one wants to help them, I get irritated and want to respond with ” It’s because you aren’t helping yourself!” Irritation….or not?
This has caused me to really look at current situations.
I’ve had an amazing year so far with Upgraded MindsetZ and I can’t be prouder of the elevating moves that are going on.
Unfortunately on a personal note, I have experienced a lot of personal trials and tribulations.
I practice what I preach. I anticipate there will always be obstacles along the road. However, I didn’t realize until reading that infographic that I may be falling back into the loophole of trying to surpress my emotions behind it.
The difference this time?
I speak on it instead of holding it in and get the help that I need to overcome it.
I will not fall into the restricted ways of old by holding everything inside and letting things get worse when it comes to my mental well being.
Proud to be where I am to even be able to identify the problems because that is over half of the battle itself.
If you are experiencing feelings and emotions that may be hindering you on a mental standpoint, do not be afraid to TALK to someone. That conversation can be life changing, just like it was for me in 2020.
We aren’t crazy…..we are human and do not need to wear the cape of a super being.
Hope this inspired someone to look for someone to talk to. Life is our gift, and I will continue to do what it takes to live it with peace and positivity.
Thank you for reading.